First Day (not really)

Alright so tomorrow is the first day but I needed some place to vent about the shit that I am feeling. So let's see where to start? I am going to High School and everyone keeps saying that I am going to have so much fucking fun well guess what? I don't give a rats ass what they think. I don't think it will be FUN. I really am nervous out of my mind and though my boyfriend is trying to help he is just making it worse. The thing is I have gotten through school not by grades but by the state tests and shit. I am really good at that kind of thing. I know I am smart I am just so Fucking lazy that I am not sure if I will be able to keep up the grades to graduate let alone get a license. I am so stressed and I just wish that I could tell what was going to happen. I am just so worried.