And more and more

Shouldn't have said a thing

Have you been there?
Have you done that?
Have you been everywhere?
Have you come back?
Have you lost the one you love?
Have you ever had them die?
Have you ever hut them so bad?
Have you ever made them cry?
Have you ever told them something that you wish you didn't say?
Have you ever wanted nothing more than to see thier smile everyday?
Have you ever told them you loved them though you shouldn't have done so?
Did you them you would never let them go?
I did all those things though I know he didn't die
I shouldn't have said anything and mentioning makes me cry

Poetry for Yay

A blissful Suffering

The blessing is the love I have
The suffering is to not have it returned
To ache day after day watching you
Without you looking at me the same I do you
If you knew how I felt would you?
What would you say?
Did you know when I say I love you I meant it?
Will you ever?
Tell me ehat you think of me that will make my life complete

A B C

The A B C's of my perfect Guy

Attitudenot as much as me
Basic has to know the basics before he even thinks about me
Caring enough to make me stay
Dominant I usually am but it is nice to have a guy take charge once and a wile
Eecentric they have to be interesting to me
Friendly well at least to me
Graceful definatly has to have some kind of feminine charm
Helpful is almost always there when I need them the most
Insistant when I say no to something it won't always be that way
Jester has to be able to make me laugh
Kind well duh!
Lustful ... I would rather not ecsplain this one
Musical can play something like a piano and play my favorite song wile still being a spaz about it!
Nuratic can stay up all night talking to me
Open can talk to me about almost anything like things he couldn't tell anyone else
Purfume has to have a distinct smell that I know and love
Questioning he can't be afraid to ask something if he wants to know
Romantic can't have a perfect guy without it can I?
Soft he is gentle with his hands
Teaching we have to be able to learn from eachother
Undefined has to be unique
Volinteering has to be with me on his own
Wonderful .... DUH!
X-rated ... (had a dirty thought and couldn't get it out of my head >_<)
Yearning has to ecspect it from me always
Zesty and best of all ...... HE IS MINE

Another Poem For the love of it

The Spaz

His fingers know no bounds
His mouth runs 1000 miles an hour
His body dances around in my head
His singing rings throughout my soul
His face so close to mine
His arms around my waist
His outfit is his own
Even his hair is spazstic
Though I know he will never move close enough

I Love The Spaz Who Has My Heart

Coming to turms

I have come to turms ith the fact that I am in love with a gay man. I have also ecepted that he will never love me back. Doesn't mean I can't write poems about him ^_^.

The Colors

I feel it now

I can see them clearly

All of those colors flowing from your fingers, your eyes, your feet, and your sweet sweet lips

The brightest of them all is your heart

How I long to touch yours as you have touched mine

Can you tach me how?

I want to feel the colors surounding your every move

Can anyone else see your colors like I do?

Will they ever?

I want to be able to feel your colors

I wish as ever for The Colors

Alright so from now on I will be choosing one poem from my notebook and posting it in my blog. I know I know you can hardly wait for the next one. Well must go now so much things to do and so little time to do it in.

~Sye~

Alright then!

Well today in a school assembly I played guitar hero and fell on my ass. It was fun!

I just can't make up my mind!

I love two guys! One is gay one is straight and I have no chance with either! Also There is this dumb slut behind me. She just keeps saying how she prefers white dick over black or hispanic dick. I just think she is a retarded bitch that sounds like the song by Blink 182 "Lip dick, fat fucker, cock sucker, mother fucker, cunt." ect. Well I am just really confused today. And pissed at the stupid bitch who won't shut the fuck up. But whatever. Well so we go.
~Sye~

Oh the fickleness of me

Alrighty so I don't like my gay friend anymore. I know I know I'm alittle fickle. Well now I like this other guy who lives in a different city that is like 3 miles away. Well I am sitting in class at the moment and feeling very tired. I don't even know why it isn't like I didn't get any sleep last night I even over slept but I am still tired. well I have to go so As always Have a good day in this blah of a world.

You would think it were great

Alright so for the first time since my boyfriend left me I have been doing alright you know? Well I fell for this guy only one problem ... He's gay. I feel crushed inside but I can't get hooked off from him. Falling out of love is a lot harder than falling in love. Sure don't get me wrong I am going to stay his friend and not like freak out on him. But it's just I feel so strongly about him and that's why he can't ever know. Then there is this guy who is in my fourth period class who comes up to me with a proposition for me and I promised I wouldn't talk about it but basically he asked me to call this guy I haven't talked to since last year. I call him and we are having a nice conversation and then I ask him advise about my problem and I find out he is homophobic! He had to go so I didn't get a chance to bash him out of his wits. Well and there is another dilemma I usually don't associate with people like that, but I really like being his friend you know? I'm just a big blah of confusion lately. That is also all I have to say for now.
~Sye~

Really dumb things on the internet

Alright! So I was searching on Google for some interesting signs for a book I am writing. The I stumble upon a witchcraft site right? Well It was basically some Cristian mommy trying to teach their children of the Satanism that is witchcraft. Well you know what I say to that? Grow up! I mean how would you like it if other people started calling your religion Satanic? I'm not saying that witcraft is right or wrong it is just some people really believe in this stuff. You should never bash someone elses beliefs. Brings us back to the gay issue as well. I mean love is love screw you all that think differently! This has just been rally dumb so I'll just sign off and leave you to think about a few things.
~Sye~

Yada Yada

Alright so new rant! Yay! Well this week has been crazy as far as my schedual went. I had to go to a field trip with the special ed kids at our school. Then I am going to be in a american idol spoofs. Then I am going to the mall with my best friend (who just happens to be gay) Fishy! That is all I have to say right now so much love! Oh and I finally picled a good pen name!
~Sye~